On a warm, damp September evening in 2008, my healing journey began.
I was born and raised in a suburb of Detroit, Michigan. In the midwest, family life and family values were a number one priority. Many are deeply rooted in the Detroit area, and folks continue to plant roots generation after generation.
For me, growing up in Detroit meant family gatherings almost every weekend, whether it was a birthday party, a holiday, or just a regular old get together for no reason other than to be together. I spent my childhood with my cousins, aunts, uncles and grandparents.
togetherness. roots. family. it's what mattered most.
And I grew up in a typical American household. One mom, one dad, a sister, two cats and a white picket fence. I went to Catholic school all my life, from the time I was three all the way through high school. I was "the good kid," the one who always got good grades and stayed out of trouble.
From the outside looking in, life was grand.
Except for one very important piece of the puzzle...
I suffered with almost debilitating anxiety each and every day from the time woke up in the morning, to the time I laid my head down on my pillow at night. And this anxiety began as a young child as far back as I can remember.
I was silent, frozen most of the time. I was terrified to go to school and be around other kids. I was scared of my teachers, my principals, my classmates. I was scared of getting laughed at, so I kept silent most of the time. I was always waiting in fearful anticipation for the next bad thing to happen. I was afraid of all adults except for my parents and my grandma.
Life was clearly something to be feared, in my world. And I think the worst part was, I thought this way of living was normal. Because it was all I ever knew.
Then, on that warm, damp September evening in 2008, my parents told me they were getting a divorce.
Suddenly everything around me turned black. I felt faint. I tried to take a shower but began hyperventilating. I needed air, but there was no air to breathe.
In one five minute conversation, life went from everything I once knew, to the unfamiliar. Togetherness. Roots. Family. It's what mattered most. Or did it?
I was confused. I was anxious and depressed. I held it all in.
As a result I got physically ill, and over the course of a few months' time ended up taking five or more prescription drugs per day. I was in and out of doctors every two months with something new. On and off antibiotics constantly.
And as usual, all looked perfect from the outside looking in, and nobody knew how much inner turmoil I had welled up inside of me. Not even me.
This was a tremendously painful time in my life. And yet, when I look back on it I realize it has prepared me for literally everything that has come into my world since then.
It was due to my physical illnesses that I attended school for Traditional Naturopathic Medicine, and became a Certified Detoxification Specialist. It was due to intense anxiety that I was able to connect so deeply with yoga, enough to become a 200-hour Certified Yoga Instructor. This journey has also led me to become a Certified Reiki Practitioner so I could help facilitate healing in the body, mind and spirit.
I have learned about the human body, and how everything is connected. I have learned how to regulate digestion, how to assist in eliminating toxins naturally, and how to remedy a small headache using the simple resource of water. I learned energy healing and meditation, and have experienced the power of both, to the point where they are essential parts of my life. I have learned how to teach safe and beneficial yoga classes that feel good in the body, and help to focus the mind and expand the spirit.
And now, ten years after that painful September day, I am a stronger person in body, mind and spirit. I am eternally grateful for my parents’ decision. Although it was intensely difficult and took a LOT of work to overcome, I would not be the person I am today without that wake-up call. When hard times arise (and they continue to), I am now able to see the bigger picture. I am able to trust that I am being guided by something bigger than me. Something that has plans for me that are so great, I can't even imagine what they might be. And somehow I have released so much emotional baggage over the course of time that my anxiety is much less intense than it used to be. I am slowly but surely learning how not to be afraid of life.
my goal in life is to help guide others to the same self-awareness, the same confidence, the same trust in life so they can live to their full potential.
To have the opportunity to support others on this deeper level is an absolute honor and a joy for me. No matter how you came upon this page, you were sent here for a reason. Whatever that reason might be, thank you for visiting, and allowing me to share my life story with you.