Changes in the body, mind and spirit are subtle.
You don’t realize how far you’ve truly come, or on the contrary how much farther you have to go until you are in a position where you are almost forced to realize it.
For example, when I was younger I used to loathe going to the park. My parents would take my sister and I, we would take a walk on the trails, go to the petting farm, play on the swings, yada yada. Believe it or not that used to bore me to tears.
As I got older I slowly grew to love nature walks, petting animals and well maybe not playing on the swings but you get my point.
I have come a long way since my “bored to tears in nature” days. Now I would be lost without nature.
But it took time for me to realize that nature was my haven. It took many years of struggle and internal conflict before I was aware of that need.
The changes over those years were subtle. And then one day I woke up and just knew.
I can honestly say the same thing has happened in the past year and a half for me.
I have done so much personal development over that time, but the changes I felt along the way were very faint. Until one day I woke up a completely different person and realized truly how far I had come, and yet, how far I still had to go.
For the past year and a half I have done so many things that have scared the sh** out of me. Every single day has been brand new.
It started with moving from Detroit to Seattle, and waking up in the morning in a brand new place. I had to change practically everything in my life except for my name.
I started a brand new business, and in a brand new field of work. Each day I found myself engaging in something brand spankin’ new, something I had never done before.
I had to find a new dentist, chiropractor, massage therapist, post office, drug store, coffee joint, movie theatre, grocery store, health store, hell I even had to find all the mechanisms on my new car!
Literally EVERYTHING in my life for the past year and a half has been new, unfamiliar, extremely uncomfortable and often times scary.
I’m writing today to tell you what a huge impact this had on me in my life and in my health, how I came to realize it, and why I am taking 30 days to focus on ME <3
Here is my story…
We were leaving for vacation. All our bags were packed, necessary identification ready, long term parking reserved, checked into our United flight, legs shaved, bikini packed and a gorgeous weather forecast. We were all set for a fun and relaxing vacation in the Florida sun.
Husband and I said our I love you’s and fell asleep peacefully, looking so forward to our family vacation.
The next morning the alarm went off and my heart felt as if it were going to pound out of my chest. My whole body felt tight and stiff, I couldn’t take a deep breath in and my stomach was doing flips. I couldn’t even focus enough to make my morning smoothie.
I wondered why my body was so terrified, when in my mind I could care less. I was excited and happy to get away, yet my body was in sheer panic mode.
Truthfully this type of thing was happening over the course of the past year and a half, but on a subtler scale, so I barely even paid any attention.
At first I knew it was mostly the result of the stress from our move. But then as my healing progressed throughout the year and I was finally able to start feeling more comfortable in my new home, I couldn’t connect why these panicky moments were happening so often.
I was also having a ton of other symptoms, which were also pretty subtle until recently. These include (but are certainly not limited to):
*Digestive issues which ranged from diarrhea to constipation for days
*Tight muscles, stiff joints
*Feeling like my head was spinning
*Lack of focus
*High anxiety/unable to handle any type of stress, large or small
*Frequent stomach aches
*Random “panic” moments where my heart would rapidly beat and I felt like my body was “vibrating”
*Chronic fatigue but unable to sleep
*Irregular and painful periods
*Random “hot flashes”
*Occasional ringing in the ears
I felt dizzy constantly thinking about what could possibly be wrong with me when all I did was take care of myself.
My diet was good (impeccable, in fact), I did yoga almost daily, I received monthly Reiki and massage, I meditated daily and engaged in tons of personal development. Yet I felt like crap most of the time, and now looking back I wonder why I didn’t see this coming sooner.
I knew that morning that I woke up in a panic state to leave for my trip something was wrong, and I could no longer do it alone.
Once we arrived in Florida and got settled in, I immediately called my Aunt and mentor, the person who got me into natural healing in the first place.
Within just a few minutes of conversation, she knew exactly what was going on, and it all stems from my adrenals being overworked.
My body was in fight or flight mode pretty much all the time, unless I was sleeping (which has been difficult to do lately).
I had a feeling this is what was happening, but I needed some help. I like to say every healer needs a healer <3
She recommended all kinds of wonderful things for me to do to get myself well again. And I am taking everything she suggested and running with it!
She taught me that I need to take a step back and re-evaluate how I was “doing life,” and make some much needed changes.
I had run myself ragged, and didn’t even fully realize it until I was in too deep.
That trip to Florida changed my life. From that day forward I made the decision to change in my world what had needed to be changed for a long time.
As I said, everything in my life for the past year and a half has been brand spankin’ new. I simply can’t do that anymore.
As much as I enjoy the expansion of life, the newness, and the beautiful growth that comes from change, I am officially taking a rest for 30 days, OR, as long as I need in order to heal my overworked adrenals.
For the next month, I will be doing a deep healing.
I will be taking frequent breaks from my work. When I need a nap, I’m gonna take it.
I will be on a regimen of herbs and a diet of mainly fresh raw fruits and veggies (not like that is a new thing, LOL!).
I’ll be doing light yoga and relaxing walks for my exercise. I’ll be making monthly Reiki and massage a priority.
And most importantly, I’ll be healing <3
To my current clients: Don’t worry, I’ll still be here to support and encourage you daily :)
I’ll be checking in to my challenge groups each day, posting often and documenting my journey as I go, so I can share my experience with you all.
It’s amazing what a life change can do for you.
And I use the word “for,” because if it weren’t for this experience, I wouldn’t be able to fully heal my body, mind and spirit.
And…LUCKY YOU, because the more I know, the more I can help you :)
I am currently looking into new ways I can educate myself more on the human body and this topic specifically as I take my time to heal.
I am looking forward to this healing opportunity, so I can spread the word about what true healing really is.
True healing is not about burying your feelings, or masking symptoms.
True healing is about finding the root cause, addressing it and not being afraid to go deeper to heal yourself in body, mind and spirit.
For the next 30 days I’ll be around…but I’ll be giving ME the attention I need which will only allow me to be a better version of myself, and ultimately a better coach.
My best friend would tell me to “cool my jets” (love her!). Well I think for the first time in my entire life, I’m actually gonna.
Please send love and healing vibes as I take a mini-timeout <3
Peace, joy, love & light to you all.