When we first moved to Seattle from Detroit, I remember feeling intense anxiety and fear, and a sense of being completely uprooted. Moving to a place you’ve only ever seen pictures of is a very exciting yet scary thing. Knowing virtually no one and being completely unfamiliar with your new surroundings is very intimidating to say the least.
At that time I felt called to start each day with a yoga practice, or at the very least some type of movement. I wasn’t sure why, I just knew it was something I had the time for and always felt better after doing. So I built it into my day. And on days when I did not begin with this ritual, I just didn’t feel right.
In recent days, my life has been an extremely busy and even chaotic. I have gone through some pretty rocky times recently, filled with a lot of change and along with that, some pretty intense anxiety.
Some weeks have been more intense than others, but overall there has been little down time, and even less time for me to fit in my daily yoga practice.
Feelings of old have come back to visit me once again, and although not nearly as strong as they used to be, they are still there. I have had to really take time to sort through some things, and upon reflection I began to realize what was happening to me.
I certainly did not understand these most recent feelings of loneliness, loss, confusion, anxiety and fear at first glance. But now that I do, I’d like to share them with you.
When tumultuous energy blesses us with its presence, ultimately it is there to help us learn the lessons we were meant to learn on this earth. It is there to help us expand and grow into who we are truly meant to become. And sometimes in the process we can feel a sense of disconnection or loss.
When we are disconnected from ourselves and who we truly are down to the soul level, there is going to be some confusion and perhaps some other unpleasant feelings.
During this busy time of change and upheaval, I was just not feeling myself and it is because I allowed myself to disconnect from who I truly am.
I was missing yoga classes multiple times a week, and cooking yummy healthy meals in my kitchen took a back seat to my busy life. Volunteering at the animal shelter and spending time with the sweet kitties was being “squeezed in” to my schedule, just to get my hours in for the month. It’s no wonder I was feeling so strange, so not myself. I was surrendering who I truly AM.
I am a yogi. I am a teacher of plant-based nutrition. I am an advocate for the animals.
And I put all that aside? Nonsense and NOT. COOL.
Lesson learned! Thank you Universe!
As a result of this most recent lesson (which wasn’t on the syllabus, btw…next time, teacher, I would like a heads up thank you very much!), my focus for this next chapter in my life is to really dedicate myself to who I truly AM.
That means NOT sacrificing my personal yoga practice. That means cooking tons of yummy meals, creating recipes, focusing on my ebook, and allowing myself to spend more time with our furry friends as I wish.
These past couple months have taught me who I truly am, and what I truly want and need.
Because I am dedicating myself to who I truly AM, there are a lot of brand new and awesome things coming, which I cannot wait to share with you all. I will be sure to keep you updated when things start to come alive!
But if there is one thing I’d like you to take away from this blog post, it is this: Be you, FULLY you. Always.
You’re unique, and you have special gifts only YOU can offer to the world. So bring it!!
Here’s a sneak peek of what’s to come:
- Healthy Holidays: Your Guide to Holiday Nutrition- Workshop coming soon at Yoga in the Center in Mill Creek
- Healthy Cooking Classes- coming soon! Location & Time TBD
- Ebook- topic TBA once it is published and ready!
Looking forward to sharing these gifts with all of you in the near future.